what it's like

The hardest part about THIS, the procedure, not the loss, per se, has been that it was all so simple.

No pain and a half day of spotting, and it's done.

My belly has gone, and my boobs are no longer tender.

Already.

ALREADY.

It's over.

Done.

A life time of dreams gone like they never existed.

And the hardest part about tonight is no longer being able to hold my belly like I was holding my babies. There's nothing left there to love, and that really REALLY sucks.